I've officially survived the holiday season.

Yup, I did the rounds to the relatives. My water did not break on anyone's couch! I however feel so shitty that I'm not sure I'll make out the week, but apparently my guesses on labor are not accurate anyway, so I'll probably go to 42 weeks and have a 12lb kid.

And now on to the Christmas morning pics of little dude.







The red mini vee is THE coolest guitar ever. Jeff's got to get him amped up later.

Trenty also got some gifts, 2 count them two outdoor bunting things. Oops now he has three, two sleepers and some baby einstein thing probably full of lead and made in china. I wonder if it would be wrong to return it? I have gift receipts.

In other events, I should shower, I didn't plan to go anywhere but because I'm a sucker I'm going to my MILs so Xander can retrieve his gifts. I hope I puke on her rug. Seriously I feel ill, and I have to do my big dinner, I hope I can eat it.

And these are my diapers!

All washed folded and put neatly in his dresser! They are stuffed with the smaller inserts, the larger ones are on the left. Don't they look like ginormous maxi pads?

I can't believe that everything is done now, really everything except the few knitting/crochet things I'm doing.

I think the husband's Dec. 21st date is going to go bye bye.

Dr.s appt. Still dilated the same, she said the kid's head is firmly lodged (same as last week), I am now measuring ahead (only a week 37 weeks now), she's estimating weight at a bit over 6 lbs which is already heavier than Xander was when he was born. While I know that's no guarantee it's not an unreasonable guess like some people get that the kid's 8 lbs at 36 weeks or something.

I guess I'm staying pregnant for a bit, I'd be glad to make it to term, I would not be glad to go into labor at someone's house on Christmas which right now is my biggest fear EVER.

Why pregnant women should not watch scary movies.

Yes I'm still here, yes I'm still pregnant, no I'm not overdue I'm only 36 weeks, no I would not like to go on Christmas but if I do, I did not induce labor just to piss you off, and yes I am uncomfortable the whole wiggling in my chair didn't tip you off? The baby pool set up by my fantabulous family is all over the place. The husband thinks it'll be the 21st at 2am, my dad thinks the 29th at 3am (notice a trend? These people want me to deliver a baby in the middle of the night! Assholes), I say the 23rd at 8pm. We'll see where I am when I see my midwife today, I'm so glad I have the upperhand, lol.

Xander gave me a heavy sigh and asked me when Trent was going to come out, I told him maybe before Christmas, maybe not, he then asked me if we were going to put him in a box like a present, lmao! I'm tempted to go to the store and get a large red bow to put on the kiddo's snowsuit when I bring him home.

I'm pretty sure I caused serious permanent injury to my husband's back with my fingernails while watching The Descent last night. OMFG scary as fuck, he even screamed when the first ugly bat cave creature attacked. Christ. I thought I was going to have a heart attack or go into labor. No more scary movies, especially a scary movie that someone says is the scariest of the decade, ugh.

Amazingly enough my dear child is growing out of things. He is a tiny little dude, not even 45lbs (well he might be now it's been awhile since he was weighed) so this is shocking. He had on a pair of jeans that were two inches too short, I told him to change and he said 'okay they're tight anyway' TIGHT? This is the kid that could fit into size 3T shorts last summer except the length, I checked the size 6, jeebus time to go shopping again I think. I guess it's time to weed out clothes, and toys too, ugh not what I planned to do today but if I've got to get in there anyway, why not.

And nothing's quite as funny as two first graders asking me why they can't feel their hands, uh stop picking up the snow, duh. And no I'm not being immune to their discomfort, we have the same conversation every stinking morning, you'd think they'd learn.

Why I'll probably go into labor this weekend.

~Not done with Christmas cack CHECK
~Crib is still sitting in the living room CHECK
~The child's big gift is backordered CHECK
~Husband needs to attend an important family meeting CHECK
~Snowstorm CHECK
~Pelvic pressure/backache/irritability CHECK

It's not something I'm hoping for nor remotely want but it would just figure.

My diapers are coming, my diapers are coming!

UPS says they'll be here today. I can't wait to play with the little snappy/aplix
thingys.

Midwife yesterday, I am 2cm dilated, I did not dilate with Xander until the day I went into labor so this is all very new to me. Apparently you can stay that way for quite awhile so no biggie there, I only have ctx when I bend over too much so not much really going on otherwise.

In other news the kid is getting sick, the dog has diarrhea from the antibiotics he's on from his ballectomy, and I've got a massive headache that will not go away. I need to wrap gifts today, and probably do something else that I can't think of right now. I did however get all the baby's stuff washed and put away including the diaper covers. Bless the laundry tabs on the diaper covers, seriously they did not stick together in a giant diaper chain.

I really hope I have enough diaper covers, I have 6, 3 from wiggleworms, two from a friend on the internet (a prowrap and some other kind) one wool. 13 newborn prefolds (but I'm figuring in a pinch I can use an infant one I have 12 of those), 12 1 size happy heiny's (which probably won't fit at first). Still comtemplating some mommy's touch AIOs, probably only 3 though, maybe 3 of something else (Haute Pockets??).

Oh and to go majorly off subject here's out lovely tree: Really it is pretty nice for coming from the internet lol.

X-posted to the craftay blog

But I thought it would be 'fun' to tie dye onesies and some of my prefolds. It wasn't nearly as much fun as one would hope. They do look pretty cute though, and the cheap WalMart dylon dye seems to work just fine despite people on the internets saying you have to buy the far more expensive stuff from dharma. It was messy though, and I was sweating like a pig and exhausted by the time it was over. Here are the results:

Onsies:



Newborn Prefolds:



Infant Prefolds:



Eh I know that no one will really see the diapers, but maybe it will make me cheerier to see the bright happy colors while I'm washing off poo?

Why does it feel like Monday?

Dh was home yesterday thanks to the horrid fucking freeway going to work, I mean seriously how much warning does the city need in order to get the roads cleared up? I've been hearing for days how bad yesterday was going to be. I think that's why it feels like Monday though, because he was home.

I'm trying to figure out whether I want to spend my day tie dying stuff like a hippy, or washing all the baby clothes. Decisions decisions. I think it's too late to crock pot dinner so I'll have to make something else, bah.

I don't think the baby has enough blankets, and I don't have enough money to buy a bunch of yarn for a blanket. I'm contemplating all the wool yarn I have downstairs. Wool yarn for a baby blanket? It won't be that hard to deal with right? *twitch*. And will I have time? I have no clue. I wish I were due a month later or a month earlier, that really would have solved most everything. Stupid bad timing around holidays. Feels like there's never enough time.

Happy Birthday to me!

So yesterday was my 26th. Yeah no more early 20s, and I'm past mid 20s I guess, barreling into *gulp* late 20s.

Scary thought, I will be 31 when the baby starts Kindergarten, I will be 44 when he graduates highschool. No more youngest parent in the class.

Went out to dinner, the waitstaff sang to me *groan* then watched the first disc of the Sopranos season 6.5 with the husband. Oh yes and I also went shopping, I bought pjs for Xander, onsies for the baby, and stocking stuffers. The only thing I bought for me was socks. Yes that really is sad. I just don't want anything. Usually I want clothes but obviously I don't want clothes right now. Well ok I want diapers, and I probably will stare at the money I have for awhile then buy cloth diapers.

And now it's Sunday, and it's pissing down rain, and it's depressing blech.

Pics from yesterday:

Cards notice the one in the middle, that's from my kiddo <3



Pic of me and the husband trying to be cute, we just instead look tired, and my hair looks like crap:



Today I need to get crap done, and get crap ready for tomorrow, back to school, back to work back to life. Ayup.

ugh brain = huge washing machine

Seriously, and I forgot the kid's stuffed animal for sit down and read day. Thanks school for giving my late pregnancy addled brain only one day's notice. It was such a nightmare morning I'm not surprised I forgot something. And last night was a little twitch worthy too. Tomorrow is supposed to be the last day I watch that other child, I have a feeling Monday morning they'll try to drop her off anyway, I know they read the note, but I don't think they care. I got not even a phone call about me going into the hospital and they dropped her off Monday like usual. Her dad makes it a habit to be late at least twice a week too. The moral of the story is, people suck ass and will take as much advantage over you as humanly possible. Bet I won't even get paid for the last two weeks.

I'm back to my indecision about diapers, I found a new brand. I also bought 5 colors of fabric dye to tie dye my prefolds. Why? I have no idea, apparently I need to put some more on myself these final weeks, getting the other stuff together is not enough obviously. Husband has to build the crib this week, and I have to wipe down the mattress, so glad we saved the crib mattress from Xander.

At least I've got on my new microfleece leopard jammies, because seriously what's better than that? I don't want to take them off, and hell maybe I won't. I'm pretty sure the laundry and the kitchen floor that need taking care of won't give a shit.

My birthday is Saturday, if I get any money I'll probably blow it on diapers. Yes that is pretty pathetic.

33.5 and counting, he's still sticking, and in fact I feel much better than I did all week, yay! Midwife appt, lost 2 lbs (I'm thinking stress), baby's hb is good. My midwife said something about 35 weeks being the absolute earliest that they won't stop labor or something. I know I won't go that early though, thank doG I really don't want to. I also hope I don't go at 37 being that that will be Christmas.

I am so embarrassed, I ordered my live christmas tree off the internet *hangs head in shame*, the thought of hiking around a tree farm made me feel a little ill. Fed ex will be delivering it December 8th. I'm probably batshit crazy for this but I don't care, I'm all about making my life easier at this point.

I really wish I wouldn't have found the hyenacart diaper site, all those cute diapers, I need an intervention.

Whatta week.

Seriously. Tuesday I spent 6 hrs in the L&D for preterm contractions (not to be confused with preterm labor since my cervix is very closed). Now I went through the same thing with Xander the only difference was the contractions weren't really that strong and I was spotting. This time no spotting, contractions much much stronger and like 2 minutes apart, they even occasionally felt like back labor, ugh. I was given trib and procardia, and they were brought down to a reasonable level. Upon my research on the internets there's some controversy about preterm contractions without cervical changes, is it something is it nothing? Who knows, I just know since my hospital stay I've been telling my unborn he better stay put for 4 more weeks at least.

While I had a mostly great nurse she did irritate me by letting me know that I was awfully small for 32 weeks, and she bets the baby is small. I have no idea how one can tell that by looking at someone, and upon googling pictures of women 32 weeks pregnant I'm not that small, average more likely. Why people can't stop prying into my belly size is beyond me. I've gained a normal (if not slightly bigger) amount of weight, I've been eating, etc. I'm a 5'3" small framed woman, if I had gained 70 lbs then maybe I'd look like I had a huge belly. Seriously, when you're worried about dropping the baby out early the last thing you want to hear is how small he probably is.

In any event I am so not interested in Christmas. I mean I'm pretty sure I couldn't be any less interested at all. My eyes glaze over when my dad talks about getting a tree at the farm that I don't feel like hiking through, when family reminds me of their parties I feel like rolling my eyes. No matter how many times I tell people that I'm not even sure I won't be in labor they don't listen to me, they just give me the guilt look. So sorry for getting pregnant in April, I really did do it just to miss your party and piss you off. Yup.

After having my husband home for 5 days I'm missing his help already, I'm going to do very little today and rest in between, since he also has a class after work. Booooo.

Midwife tomorrow, and I have paperwork to fill out for the hospital. I'm not sure if the preterm contractions count as a complication, guess I should put it down anyway.

Can I just sleep for the next month, and wake up with a new baby???

MW appointment today, up 3 lbs (ouch), baby's fine, blood pressure is fine, urine is fine, had to refill my antibiotic (booooo), still have some head infection crap going on. But baby is good!

I have officially decided on Happy Heiny's, they are an okay price, good reviews, and someone whom I love dearly said the aplix worked fine for her kiddo so there you have it.

Other than that today has been the pits, seriously. I babysit this child in the morning and afterschool occasionally. It hasn't really been going great the last few weeks, her and my son aren't getting along so well. While it is a big deal it's not that big of a deal. Then she started taking little things from my house, a much bigger deal but since I have had no proof really, I haven't said anything have just watched her better. Now today I had an incident with her father. He was not at work today and yet he still dropped her off at my house, um if you're home why am I watching your kid? Apparently he hurt his arm, well that's just tough, I've been sick for what three weeks now, and I'm hugely pregnant, I still deal with my kid and his too!

The icing on the cake was when he called me at 3pm 'I have to go to the Dr. for my arm can you watch *childsname* this afternoon' I could not, I had a midwife appointment, plus he was home all day, he couldn't have made that appt a little earlier? I call him back tell him no I cannot watch his daughter this afternoon, since I have to leave here 15 minutes after the bus arrives. He actually has the nerve to give me an attitude about it. 'Yeah ok I guess I'll be there'. Yeah guy I guess you will.

I go meet the bus, he is not there, I take the child home with me. Fifteen minutes later he calls me 'is *childsname* there?' of course she's here dummy 'oh thank god, you could have just let her walk home' let her walk home? Let a 6 yo walk home, cross a street and SIT HOME ALONE? Why so if something happens I can feel guilty about it? No thank you for anything, hangs up on me and gets her. Wow.

Right now I'm thinking they're lucky I'm giving them the two weeks notice I am giving them, I honestly feel like just not answering the door tomorrow morning.

GAH I hate people who take advantage.

The choices omg the choices.

So now that I've finally decided on what type of diaper I'd like to use (one size pocket, with some prefolds/cheap fitteds/covers thrown in too probably), now I need to actually pick a brand. Do you know how damn many BRANDS of these things there are?

Baby Kangas, BumGenius! 2.0, Haute Pockets, Happy Heiny's One-size, Mommy's Touch, Blueberries (weird freaking diaper name no??)...that's probably just the tip of the iceberg too. I've spent many a morning zoning and drooling at the computer screen trying to figure out which ones would work best, and every. single. time. I think I might have it down, I change my mind. And while I know I could logically get a few of each it doesn't save money to do that (usually the minimum to save money is buying 6+), and then I worry that if I don't like a particular one it won't ever get used and it will be a waste.

~Baby Kangas:
Pros: love the snaps, love the color choices, love the zipper on the outside of it to remove the stuffing.
Cons: Really expensive to buy inserts since they don't come with any, mixed reviews.

~BumGenius! 2.0:
Pros: Reviews said great fit, comes with insert for free, on sale (not at that site though)
Cons: The reason they're on sale is because people have been having trouble with the aplix, either leaking or the tabs not sticking well. Considering how many times I will be washing them I'm not sure that's so hot. Color selection is meh (I'm not sure why this is important btw it just IS.

~Haute Pockets:
Pros: they have a snap version!, two inserts included, good price, snaps can fit on a small baby (ds1 is small thinking ds 2 won't be much bigger since genetics and all of that).
Cons: colors = meh, snap version only goes to 30lbs not 35 (apparently they have new ones coming out that do though).

~Happy Heiny's OS Pockets:
Pros: Colors (drool), good reviews!, two inserts included with each diaper!, Decent volume discount though not the best.
Cons: That aplix again, I am so worried that crap will fail on me.

I'm not going to bother with the other two I'm not really considering them due to lack of availability (and not great reviews) on the mommy's touch and price of the bluberries. Do you see now why I'm losing my mind?

The ones I'm most leaning towards are the Kanga's and the Haute Pockets (despite the weight thing) and the Happy Heiny's. Now if only I could make a decision.

Dear Husband,

Thank you so much for working into the night to finish the painting while I beached out and fell asleep on the couch at 9pm. Thank you also for going back to the store to get me powerade after I cried like a little sissy that you forgot it, I am sorry and I promise I will be back to (semi) normal after I deliver this child, pregnancy is getting to me.

Love your wife who will stop being insane at sometime.

Tooth lost and mia.

The boy was so happy to lose a tooth at school yesterday, because they get this charming little necklace to store it in. Unfortunately an hour after I took a picture

said tooth went MIA when the necklace opened while he was playing a rousing game of Wii sports. Oh the tears! We solved the problem by writing a note to the tooth fairy explaining the situation, well he wrote the note:

"I lost my tooth, then it got lost.

To the Tooth Fairy"

Fortunately the tooth fairy is very forgiving and left cash regardless. Since more is left for the first tooth than the ones after it Xander told me 'she only gave me half because I didn't have the tooth!'

He also took this charming photo of me, I had just woken up after a Sudafed induced nap, and for some reason I'm glowing red. And of course no longer can there be a picture of just me, the dog must join in.



Now if only the antibiotics would kick in, I haven't had an ear infection since I was a kid and my god it's horrid, I have a new sense of sympathy for the boy when he gets them. I think today is a good 'sit on the couch and watch t.v. in my pjs day' blech.

On the upside, I'm very happy I didn't hesitate from ordering more covers from Wiggleworm Bottoms since overnight she closed for new orders! I can understand why she's busy though, good product and fantastic prices.

Ack!

Heading to the Dr. at 2 for this gawdawful sinus/ear/plague whatever the hell I have. I can't remember the last time I was sick enough to need a Dr. probably '02 when Xander was a few months old? It's been awhile. Spawn does not seem to be feeling any ill effects though, with the way he keeps running a small elbow or knee across my belly.

I was going through the clothes I had bought for boychild 2 and wow I guess I probably have enough at this point! I was doing a little bit of this and that on clearance when I was working, then like an outfit a week. This is just the cutest part of the stash, including the teeeny little robeez, I missed out on the robeez thing when Xander was little, I'm so glad I get to do this again! And of course my awesome awesome sling that I adore.



I love the wiggleworms bottoms covers too. I just bought three more in small, so I have something for my infant prefolds. I figure might as well enjoy dressing the child while I can, Xander has developed his own likes and dislikes now with stuff and instead of getting him the converse sneaks this year he wanted skechers :( I couldn't even talk him into the skull vans. Damn kids getting their own personalities and all.

I love that Xander is 6 though, and I love that he wants to have his brother so badly. In school around Halloween time he made a family of ghosts, mom, dad, brother and baby <3 he puts away certain toys to save them for his brother. He's so into this, it may not last after the first 10 nights the baby's crying but it's sweet for now.

Next step, getting over this plague so I can get some more things done, walls need washing and painting, things need moving (well the husband can move things but I need to supervise where they go) the crib needs building. This is all happening way to fast and too close to the holidays.

30 weeks. I can't believe I am this far along.

The List of Things That Need Doing:

~Figure out how to sidecar crib, buy things necessary to sidecar crib.
~Paint baby's room
~Go through baby's clothes and figure out what I have and what I need (I buy an outfit every week or so, so probably won't need much!) Finish baby knitting projects.
~Complete my CD stash and buy get my pail ready
~Make a list of the other smaller stuff I'll need (baby wash, baby care, baby meds etc.), and a breast pump, I need one still.

I'm sure there are things I'm forgetting, I remembered some in the shower then promptly forgot again. I have never been a girlscout but I believe in being prepared that's for sure!

28 week appt. Gained 6 more lbs. Feel like an oompa loompa. Cannot believe I still have 12 weeks until evacuation.

Paint has been bought, stroller and carseat are here, I went nutso at kids r us the other day, it's not hard to do though. I'm just searching out the devil shoes from Robeez obsessively on ebay, I need help right?

Here is the paint color, I'm ready to start today but unfortunately there are many things that need doing before halloween so I guess it will have to wait until November.

Blue Beyond.

27 weeks where the hell is the time going?

Heartburn sometimes, cannot bend over as easily and I miss sleeping on my stomach. Baby is really high, I can actually fit into my super low rise jeans (that I bought my accident a few years ago ) again because I'm carrying so high.

I have so many things to do it's overwhelming, thankfully all big items are now purchased. I just need some clothes and little grooming crap, a bathtub etc. Still not sure what I'm doing in terms of diapering, I'll try the prefolds and see where I go from there. I was gung ho about cloth now I'm a little less to be honest.

Hopefully I'll be picking out paint this weekend so I can really get that room started. And I'm taking a trip to ON for more baby clothes. Being ready to pop during the holidays is not going to be fun, but it will probably also make the time go faster.

24 week appt. Measuring 25 weeks, I never measured ahead with X, always behind, am I going to have a monster child? I can tell this child is larger than Xander was, I do not remember being able to feel such solid baby in there this early

1 hr GT, ick nasty nasty crap, I really hope everything comes out ok and I don't have to do a three hour.

It's obvious joking with the weight lady is a bad idea, before I got on the scale I was crossing my fingers going 'come on 1000 lbs!' after she weighed me she asked me if I was eating. Um lady I gained three lbs this month, I weigh 142 from 115-118, I'd say yes I'm eating.

MW was impressed by my lack of stretch marks, she did not check under my boobs obviously.

I extended work to the 29th regretting it already, I'd love to be done this Saturday.

I'm getting big, I haven't even touched a scale because I don't want to know. I dropped a bit of mucous plug at work, I was feeling really shitty that day too, everything's been fine since and I know that sucker regenerates so I'm not worried. I've just been trying to get as much rest/sleep during the day before work as possible since it's so physically demanding.

This is the bedding I bought for Trent.

http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b352/Piercedmama24/lg_crib_201.jpg

It's a boy!

MW appt yesterday, and all is good. Triple screen was fine (although I guessed that with the lack of phone call), and my U/S was perfect, no weird markers like on Xander's, 3 vessel umbilical cord etc. That's a huge relief off my mind.

25th I go for my 1 hr glucose, then one more appt until I'm going every two weeks, I cannot believe how fast all of this is going!

Trent is kicking my butt on a daily basis, he's a hyper mover just like X. He's measuring at 20 weeks (by dates I'm 21, so close enough). I'm guessing 7lbs something since there's no cord problems, he's going to look huge compared to how X looked.

My last day of work is the 22nd, that will put me at 24 weeks, hopefully I can get my painting and other crap done then in prep for baby boy.

MW appt yesterday. N0thing spectacular to report, I've gained 2 lbs (1 up fr0m 2 months ag0 in reality), everything is fine. G0t my triple screen blood drawn. Babies hb was 146, pr0ving that hb means squat.

Ultrasound in one week

Anyway 2nd trimester is here and I feel relieved. Pain/pressure/nausea is increasing though. If I don't stop peeing every 5 minutes today (so far I've been ok *knock on wood*) I guess I'll have to check if it's a UTI. Not sure if everything's just bunched up there and it's making me miserable or what. Blech.

I can't believe how fast August is approaching, wasn't it just the 4th of July? Dr.s appts, birthdays, back to school. And of course work, trying very hard to stick it out until mid October, I just dread getting up at 6:30 for ds to get to school, and then working until whatever the fuck time they let us out (and it's getting closer to midnight every fucking day). I'm exhausted just thinking about it and I'm already sleeping for shit.

13.5ish week appt. Lost one lb. Babies h/b is good at 158 (she looked at Xander and said 'might be a sister!' but said she wasn't going to put her foot in her mouth by saying for sure of course). And the most exciting 3D ultrasound August 14th. Triple screen a week before that. Not entirely sure how I feel about the triple screen but I'm going to take it I guess. If they find anything I will NOT do an amnio though.

Beyond that everything's cool, and I'm feeling ok, still tired but ok.

Well I've made two official baby purchases today (not counting the beautiful kick ass dresser I got from a garage sale two weeks ago, with matching vanity).

Crib: http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2304668

It's nothing fancy but it matches the other furniture and it converts to a toddler bed/daybed/full sized bed. It's a hell of a lot nicer than what Xander had.


And a ring sling made out of this fabric: http://www.virginiaquilter.com/cgi-local/SoftCart.exe/online-store/scstore/p-AH6050.html?L+scstore+lrny7709ffbcfbbc+1183239338

(thank you beachmama!)

I really love buying baby stuff.

I worry about the stupidest fucking things I swear. My list of worries include

~this is going to be a dead of winter baby and I'm terrified about keeping this child warm enough. I mean we just got a new and better furnace, we don't live in an igloo, our car has heat but I'm terrified some how the baby will freeze from the car to the house.

~I'm worried about sling use in the winter and am almost going back on the 'no pain in the ass baby bucket' thing. i mean is it going to be hard to put a bundled baby in one? Do I shove it over or under my coat? And do I have to take the baby's coat off before putting him/her in a carseat? I don't remember this with X, he was bigger though during winter 5 mos. This has literally kept me up at night with worry.

~I'm fine with cloth diapering but everytime I think about cloth wipes I get really grossed out.

I'm not worried about nursing, sibling relationship, or most of cloth diapering. You know the big things.

I haven't really been updating because there's not much to update, routine non eventful pregnancy thus far (thank god). I'm starting to feel less exhausted and stupid, and I feel huge already. I cry a lot, like over everything. Maternity clothes are too big, my clothes are way too small bleh.

I saw my midwife yesterday, very good appt. Bloodtests and pap all fine (I hadn't had a pap in too long so I am relieved), no low iron this time. And the best part.... she got the heartbeat. For really real there's a baby there, I don't know why but it makes it feel more real.

Two pounds up from two weeks ago, I guess that's not too bad I already feel like a cow.

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Midwife appt today!

First off, I love her, like seriously adored her, she reminded me of that eccentric aunt with bright red hair and flamingo pink lipstick and she's so so sweet.

She was fine with me having an epidural (I wasn't sure how CNMs felt about that, if they were more for natural), which is good because I'm not into natural I'm into comfortable. She was thrilled that I'm going to breastfeed etc.

On the baby I'm about 6-7 weeks and everything's looking fine, and it's not twins no matter what my MILs freaky idiot boyfriend says. Had my pap, blood draw, peed in a cup etc. Same protocol as last time, I have a bagful of prenatal samples, pregnancy mags and a babies r us catalog for me to drool on.

I go back June 11th to hear the heartbeat, X and Jeff are coming with me this time.

Moving my blog off of a messageboard to here post 1.

Well I am 5w 2d according to my happy little ticker, I go from being elated to being a little terrified I haven't done this in 6 years and I think I've forgotten everything. Add work, the puppy we're getting (no I didn't plan to get a puppy while pregnant trust me, I would flame myself for that if I could), and of course nicotine withdrawal I've been edgy and not pleasant to be around.

So glad summer is almost here because then I don't have to get up at 7am then go to work until 11pm.