Why does it feel like Monday?

Dh was home yesterday thanks to the horrid fucking freeway going to work, I mean seriously how much warning does the city need in order to get the roads cleared up? I've been hearing for days how bad yesterday was going to be. I think that's why it feels like Monday though, because he was home.

I'm trying to figure out whether I want to spend my day tie dying stuff like a hippy, or washing all the baby clothes. Decisions decisions. I think it's too late to crock pot dinner so I'll have to make something else, bah.

I don't think the baby has enough blankets, and I don't have enough money to buy a bunch of yarn for a blanket. I'm contemplating all the wool yarn I have downstairs. Wool yarn for a baby blanket? It won't be that hard to deal with right? *twitch*. And will I have time? I have no clue. I wish I were due a month later or a month earlier, that really would have solved most everything. Stupid bad timing around holidays. Feels like there's never enough time.

Happy Birthday to me!

So yesterday was my 26th. Yeah no more early 20s, and I'm past mid 20s I guess, barreling into *gulp* late 20s.

Scary thought, I will be 31 when the baby starts Kindergarten, I will be 44 when he graduates highschool. No more youngest parent in the class.

Went out to dinner, the waitstaff sang to me *groan* then watched the first disc of the Sopranos season 6.5 with the husband. Oh yes and I also went shopping, I bought pjs for Xander, onsies for the baby, and stocking stuffers. The only thing I bought for me was socks. Yes that really is sad. I just don't want anything. Usually I want clothes but obviously I don't want clothes right now. Well ok I want diapers, and I probably will stare at the money I have for awhile then buy cloth diapers.

And now it's Sunday, and it's pissing down rain, and it's depressing blech.

Pics from yesterday:

Cards notice the one in the middle, that's from my kiddo <3



Pic of me and the husband trying to be cute, we just instead look tired, and my hair looks like crap:



Today I need to get crap done, and get crap ready for tomorrow, back to school, back to work back to life. Ayup.

ugh brain = huge washing machine

Seriously, and I forgot the kid's stuffed animal for sit down and read day. Thanks school for giving my late pregnancy addled brain only one day's notice. It was such a nightmare morning I'm not surprised I forgot something. And last night was a little twitch worthy too. Tomorrow is supposed to be the last day I watch that other child, I have a feeling Monday morning they'll try to drop her off anyway, I know they read the note, but I don't think they care. I got not even a phone call about me going into the hospital and they dropped her off Monday like usual. Her dad makes it a habit to be late at least twice a week too. The moral of the story is, people suck ass and will take as much advantage over you as humanly possible. Bet I won't even get paid for the last two weeks.

I'm back to my indecision about diapers, I found a new brand. I also bought 5 colors of fabric dye to tie dye my prefolds. Why? I have no idea, apparently I need to put some more on myself these final weeks, getting the other stuff together is not enough obviously. Husband has to build the crib this week, and I have to wipe down the mattress, so glad we saved the crib mattress from Xander.

At least I've got on my new microfleece leopard jammies, because seriously what's better than that? I don't want to take them off, and hell maybe I won't. I'm pretty sure the laundry and the kitchen floor that need taking care of won't give a shit.

My birthday is Saturday, if I get any money I'll probably blow it on diapers. Yes that is pretty pathetic.

33.5 and counting, he's still sticking, and in fact I feel much better than I did all week, yay! Midwife appt, lost 2 lbs (I'm thinking stress), baby's hb is good. My midwife said something about 35 weeks being the absolute earliest that they won't stop labor or something. I know I won't go that early though, thank doG I really don't want to. I also hope I don't go at 37 being that that will be Christmas.

I am so embarrassed, I ordered my live christmas tree off the internet *hangs head in shame*, the thought of hiking around a tree farm made me feel a little ill. Fed ex will be delivering it December 8th. I'm probably batshit crazy for this but I don't care, I'm all about making my life easier at this point.

I really wish I wouldn't have found the hyenacart diaper site, all those cute diapers, I need an intervention.

Whatta week.

Seriously. Tuesday I spent 6 hrs in the L&D for preterm contractions (not to be confused with preterm labor since my cervix is very closed). Now I went through the same thing with Xander the only difference was the contractions weren't really that strong and I was spotting. This time no spotting, contractions much much stronger and like 2 minutes apart, they even occasionally felt like back labor, ugh. I was given trib and procardia, and they were brought down to a reasonable level. Upon my research on the internets there's some controversy about preterm contractions without cervical changes, is it something is it nothing? Who knows, I just know since my hospital stay I've been telling my unborn he better stay put for 4 more weeks at least.

While I had a mostly great nurse she did irritate me by letting me know that I was awfully small for 32 weeks, and she bets the baby is small. I have no idea how one can tell that by looking at someone, and upon googling pictures of women 32 weeks pregnant I'm not that small, average more likely. Why people can't stop prying into my belly size is beyond me. I've gained a normal (if not slightly bigger) amount of weight, I've been eating, etc. I'm a 5'3" small framed woman, if I had gained 70 lbs then maybe I'd look like I had a huge belly. Seriously, when you're worried about dropping the baby out early the last thing you want to hear is how small he probably is.

In any event I am so not interested in Christmas. I mean I'm pretty sure I couldn't be any less interested at all. My eyes glaze over when my dad talks about getting a tree at the farm that I don't feel like hiking through, when family reminds me of their parties I feel like rolling my eyes. No matter how many times I tell people that I'm not even sure I won't be in labor they don't listen to me, they just give me the guilt look. So sorry for getting pregnant in April, I really did do it just to miss your party and piss you off. Yup.

After having my husband home for 5 days I'm missing his help already, I'm going to do very little today and rest in between, since he also has a class after work. Booooo.

Midwife tomorrow, and I have paperwork to fill out for the hospital. I'm not sure if the preterm contractions count as a complication, guess I should put it down anyway.

Can I just sleep for the next month, and wake up with a new baby???

MW appointment today, up 3 lbs (ouch), baby's fine, blood pressure is fine, urine is fine, had to refill my antibiotic (booooo), still have some head infection crap going on. But baby is good!

I have officially decided on Happy Heiny's, they are an okay price, good reviews, and someone whom I love dearly said the aplix worked fine for her kiddo so there you have it.

Other than that today has been the pits, seriously. I babysit this child in the morning and afterschool occasionally. It hasn't really been going great the last few weeks, her and my son aren't getting along so well. While it is a big deal it's not that big of a deal. Then she started taking little things from my house, a much bigger deal but since I have had no proof really, I haven't said anything have just watched her better. Now today I had an incident with her father. He was not at work today and yet he still dropped her off at my house, um if you're home why am I watching your kid? Apparently he hurt his arm, well that's just tough, I've been sick for what three weeks now, and I'm hugely pregnant, I still deal with my kid and his too!

The icing on the cake was when he called me at 3pm 'I have to go to the Dr. for my arm can you watch *childsname* this afternoon' I could not, I had a midwife appointment, plus he was home all day, he couldn't have made that appt a little earlier? I call him back tell him no I cannot watch his daughter this afternoon, since I have to leave here 15 minutes after the bus arrives. He actually has the nerve to give me an attitude about it. 'Yeah ok I guess I'll be there'. Yeah guy I guess you will.

I go meet the bus, he is not there, I take the child home with me. Fifteen minutes later he calls me 'is *childsname* there?' of course she's here dummy 'oh thank god, you could have just let her walk home' let her walk home? Let a 6 yo walk home, cross a street and SIT HOME ALONE? Why so if something happens I can feel guilty about it? No thank you for anything, hangs up on me and gets her. Wow.

Right now I'm thinking they're lucky I'm giving them the two weeks notice I am giving them, I honestly feel like just not answering the door tomorrow morning.

GAH I hate people who take advantage.

The choices omg the choices.

So now that I've finally decided on what type of diaper I'd like to use (one size pocket, with some prefolds/cheap fitteds/covers thrown in too probably), now I need to actually pick a brand. Do you know how damn many BRANDS of these things there are?

Baby Kangas, BumGenius! 2.0, Haute Pockets, Happy Heiny's One-size, Mommy's Touch, Blueberries (weird freaking diaper name no??)...that's probably just the tip of the iceberg too. I've spent many a morning zoning and drooling at the computer screen trying to figure out which ones would work best, and every. single. time. I think I might have it down, I change my mind. And while I know I could logically get a few of each it doesn't save money to do that (usually the minimum to save money is buying 6+), and then I worry that if I don't like a particular one it won't ever get used and it will be a waste.

~Baby Kangas:
Pros: love the snaps, love the color choices, love the zipper on the outside of it to remove the stuffing.
Cons: Really expensive to buy inserts since they don't come with any, mixed reviews.

~BumGenius! 2.0:
Pros: Reviews said great fit, comes with insert for free, on sale (not at that site though)
Cons: The reason they're on sale is because people have been having trouble with the aplix, either leaking or the tabs not sticking well. Considering how many times I will be washing them I'm not sure that's so hot. Color selection is meh (I'm not sure why this is important btw it just IS.

~Haute Pockets:
Pros: they have a snap version!, two inserts included, good price, snaps can fit on a small baby (ds1 is small thinking ds 2 won't be much bigger since genetics and all of that).
Cons: colors = meh, snap version only goes to 30lbs not 35 (apparently they have new ones coming out that do though).

~Happy Heiny's OS Pockets:
Pros: Colors (drool), good reviews!, two inserts included with each diaper!, Decent volume discount though not the best.
Cons: That aplix again, I am so worried that crap will fail on me.

I'm not going to bother with the other two I'm not really considering them due to lack of availability (and not great reviews) on the mommy's touch and price of the bluberries. Do you see now why I'm losing my mind?

The ones I'm most leaning towards are the Kanga's and the Haute Pockets (despite the weight thing) and the Happy Heiny's. Now if only I could make a decision.